I tried to catch Altered Frequency (AF) perform in Laundry Bar tonight @ 10pm. Didn’t really work out cause worship practice ended at 10pm and AF was scheduled to play at 10pm. Haha. But i drove to The Curve anyway with Sookie and we caught another band called Tokyo Blue (i think). The vocalist was like, “Phwoar.” Very strong voice, she had. Met too many Acts Church people in the bar *grin*. Lol. Like, almost every corner there was one Acts-er. Heh.
Anyways.
I feel like i’ve been rather distracted lately. In terms of prayer and seeking. Tak boleh tidur and all s’more. Been reading Nehemiah (again), and in verse 4:10, it speaks about “too much rubble that we couldn’t get to building the wall.” I find myself having/thinking/feeling too much clutter.
I had to ask myself about what i’ve been doing to get to this state. It seems that doing is not so much as “being”. Tiring isn’t quite the word. But oh, distractions. How willing am i to build with a trowel in one hand while my other hand grasps the sword? Sometimes, it seems the grasping of the sword is much harder than it is to build with a trowel. *guiltily* But i’m glad that God’s grace is still sufficient. And i know my greatest fear is to leave for too long.
God reminded me that the building and the grasping has to work hand in hand for the building to be what He has willed it to be. I’m just an empty vessel. With a trowel and a sword. It takes both. *reminds self again and again*
Ah, Lord, help me “undistracted be” in my following.
I’ll be taking a 6-day sabbatical out of the country next week :) Hope you guys have a blessed week ahead!
To my dearest kawan yang bernama Benjamin Lee Choong Yang,
Selamat hari jadi yang ke-21.
Untuk hari yang istimewa ini, saya nak berucap terima kasih kepada CY yang merupakan kawan, teman lepak, kutu malam, cikgu dan drebar yang paling baik sekali!
Sudah 12 tahun kita berkenalan, tak pernah pun kita bergaduh. Alangkah baiknya persahabatan kita ini.
Pada hari ini, saya juga ingin berkata yang CY sudah tua.
Tapi saya masih muda. Saya berterima kasih kepada Tuhan kerana Dia yang menyebabkan saya muda.
Saya juga berterima kasih kepada Tuhan untuk kawan baik seperti kamu :D
You’d think that after a whole day of playing and watching tv, i’d feel so much better.
But no..oooo, the thought of that one last paper lurking at the back of my head just dims the whole excitement of celebrating with Kungfu Panda. IT WAS REALLY AWESOME, BTW! Skadoooosh!
*coughs*
Anyways, a little bit is never enough.
Take it from Calvin.
Cartoons know best. I know my folly will come and bite me in the bum the moment i sit for the paper.
2 papers were tough, today’s was ok. Can’t wait for exams to be over. I think i’d like my 2 weeks break now, thankyouverymuch :)
Today was interesting. I played a mad doctor’s assistant for my church’s announcement video. Only, i wasn’t mad, i think i was stiff. Oh wells. Experimented coke with mentos. Experiment failed. Celebrated someone special’s birthday with the rest of AYA staff and had green tea cake. Oh, and i also had brains thrown at me multiple times. The brains say, “Think.”
People don’t usually act the way they feel. The tendency is usually to hide your true emotions. Or display it all too well for people to see.
I vary between both. Depending on the situation. Unfortunately, from what i hear…,I tend to do the latter.
So little to say but so much time,
Despite my empty mouth, the words are in my mind.
Please wear the face, the one where you smile,
Because you lighten up my heart when I start to cry.
-First Love-Adele-
I don’t think that’s a good thing. Especially if you’re angry, annoyed. But i guess it’s okay if you’re happy. Don’t you agree? :)
Maybe i’m just not cut out for it. Then i think again, and i get more pissed at myself for saying what i just said. And then i realised that its okay, its just practice #2 and by the nineteenthousandeighthundredandfifth time, i should be a pro at it.
Miens :( I just want to crawl into a hole and reflect. But i don’t have time to do that either.
Other than that, we did brilliantly today :) We surpassed the 500-mark! How awesome is that. And i met new people who had a great time, and did not realise the many booboos. (that i made or otherwise) Aih, God’s grace is sufficient indeed. Anyways, time to look at the bigger picture.
Fancies are like shadows…you can’t cage them, they’re such wayward, dancing things. – Anne Shirley of Anne of Avonlea
Past 12am and i can’t sleep. Made good progress in studying today. At least, i felt i did. It feels satisfying to study and *understand* what it is you’re studying. Something i couldn’t do for the last paper. Oh wells.
First paper didn’t go down too well. Feel quite depressed about it but on the bright side, i did better than expected for one of my assignments that i had to rush out before OA.
*sigh*
Lord, just let me pass this one, please? =/
You gave me courage to believe
That all Your goodness I would see
And if it had not been for You, standing on my side
Where would I be
If not for your goodness
If not for your grace
I don’t know where I would be today
If not for your kindness
I never could say I’m still standing
If not for your mercy
If not for your Love
I most likely would have given up
If not for your favour
I never could say I’m still standing But by the grace of God!
