Archive for September, 2008

:: beams ::

Satisfied stomachs. Awesome company. Good ice cream in abundance. Laughter all around.

I’m happy. Very. Contented and extremely satisfied. For now :)

You’re like a before and after photo
How I ever live without you I don’t know
So we gonna plant the seed and watch it grow oh
Apple, you don’t even know how your laughter taste so sweet oh
Apple, well I thank my stars that you fell so close, you fell so close that…
You fell so close to me.

-Apple-Joe Brooks-

:)

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:: she fell in love in the first place ::

It seems that hearing really sad stories from people really *can* affect the moods/emotions of others. I find myself having a hard time trying to detach myself or at least *trying* to, that i may remain in an unbiased position.

I won’t be held responsible,
She fell in love in the first place.

I’m affected nevertheless, listening to totally emo music and thinking, i wish i could take away all your fears and insecurities. But then again, i’m a girl too. I know how it feels. I don’t need to be in or have had a relationship to know that girls who give their hearts, seldom get their hearts returned wholly. I thank God that He’s merciful to give time to heal, strength to overcome, and His love that remains. No matter how much we fail Him, He still waits.

Premature attraction needs guidance. Don’t rush. Think. Pray. Surrender. He’s only got the best for you.

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise
And we’d never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We’d ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen.

Perhaps i’ve been too judgmental. Too idealistic. Is that why you won’t let me in? I have no defense for myself other than, i protect myself for a reason. I remain accountable. My guard cannot be let down. And neither should yours. Not yet. Not for any Tom, Dick and Harry.

He may be sweet. Charming, even. A gentleman in every way. I’ve met a few. Amazing brothers whom i respect and admire. But they need to grow too. Sometimes the outward facade does not reflect the inner spirit. Understand that i’m not perfect to speak about such a delicate issue. But know that these boys/men are not either.

But God is. He waits for our hearts, girls. We’re precious in His sight. Won’t you believe that? Wait, i plead.

I share my heart with you. Read the rest of this entry »

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:: if you’re done and you know it ::

CLAP YOUR HANDS! :D

I give myself props! No more assignments for the semester! Bring on the exams! Woot :D

Time to celebrate. Oreo mcflurry, anyone? :)

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:: no rush ::

I really should be trying to finish up this one last assignment for the semester. Am feeling abit light-headed from the lack of sleep and rest. Busy weekend, two assignments. Oh, the last minute-ness of it all. Am looking for a break after tomorrow. I get to put on my baju raya and eat lemang. *laughs*

I need time. For dinners and stuff. *checks schedule* Hrm. =/

I’m tired. I am.

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you.” – John 15:5-7

Apart from You, i can do nothing. I surrender.

And like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start, neither should I rush my way…

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:: you done done me ::

I’ve finally turned 21. Big age? Hmm…now that it’s here…i can’t say that it was that much of a *revelation* turning 21.

The celebration lasted 3 days. Lol. What with Bloom Conference, surprise visit by The Kawans, dinner at Caff, whole day in church and more :) You guys made my day. As much as i wanted my *quiet* celebration, i had a brilliant birthday.

Thank you all, for remembering. For wishing. For the pressies. For the time :) I love you guys, you know that right? ;)

I’m happy. Very :) Thank you.

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:: the 21st present ::

You’re so good to me.

The best presents i’ve ever gotten is from You and i know this isn’t the last of ‘em :)

This key represents more freedom than any other key i could’ve gotten as my 21st birthday present from my parents.

My best testimony yet, is coming. I declare it :)

“Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved-you and your household.” – Acts 16:31

…thank You :)

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:: drat the meds ::

It’s that time of the month again, and its my once-a-month-wish-i-wasn’t-a-girl day.

5 reasons why i hate having my period :

  1. It hurts.
  2. I can’t eat ice cream. Or drink cold stuff.
  3. I can’t walk normal. Or rather, i prefer not to move at all.
  4. I have to take painkillers which knock me out a couple of hours after consumption.
  5. Did i tell you that it HURTS LIKE MAD???

Yes, i’m PMS-ing now. Be nice or i’ll bite.

3 reasons why i tolerate and take back my once-a-month-wish-i-wasn’t-a-girl day :

  1. I get to eat all the chocolates i want. It’s proven to help. They release endorphins aka happy thoughts. Or in this case, happy-er thoughts.
  2. I have reason to skip school.
  3. Looking at the big picture : I want to have babies in the future. And i’m assuming this monthly pains might/will/MUST eventually help in the preparation of labour pain. =.=”

God, why la? I’m going to turn 21 and i’m still asking why. Sigh. Why why why.

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:: reverse ::

I’m sad for you. You deserve far better.

*shifts gear into reverse*

I’m not emo. Just busy. In all aspects.

The little lady is on her guard. Again.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park,
I asked God who I’m supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie,
I said a prayer and fell asleep.

-Dream-Priscilla Ahn-

Good night :)

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