Archive for December, 2008

:: the stock-check ::

It’s the 31st of December again. And pardon the irony, but it seems as if this year flew by even faster than the years that had gone by.

And every year…i make resolutions i don’t keep. Not all of them, at least. So this  year, i’m just gonna do away with them. For the sake of my sanity. I AM however, going to do my usual Bridget-Jones stock-check.

Things i’ve done that i’m proud of : (in no particular order)

  • Being part of the amazing UFO team.
  • Being part of AYA choir.
  • Being part of Acts Kids Holiday Program.
  • Being part of OKU 2008 with Hannah Yeoh’s team.
  • Dying to self and getting made up to MC for AYA Awards.
  • Stepping forward into leading worship in church, and not shrinking back despite doing a horrendous job the first time.
  • Leading “homes” together with my awesome co-home leader, Yvonne.
  • Doing the best i’ve done in school this year.
  • Playing an angel (hehehehehe) and helping to coordinate this year’s Christmas production.

Places i’ve visited this year :

  • Hong Kong
  • Kota Kinabalu
  • Kuantan

How many books i’ve read : Thank God its most definitely more than 20.

New restaurants i’ve tried : That’s too many to count. Whetted appetites ;)

New friends i’ve made : Perhaps it’s easier to count which friends i’ve kept in touch with.

How many weddings i’ve been to : About six. Congratulations to all of you, newly-weds!

How many funerals : One.

How many boyfriends i’ve had : Nil. Praise the Lord.

Every year, my stock-check changes. I prolly need a proper template for better comparison, instead of my haphazard recollection. But hey, nobody said Bridget Jones was organised.

I’m so glad that, at least, You remain unchanged. I’ve learnt so much and done so much only by Your grace. Thank You for the family, friends, pastor’s and leaders that You’ve placed in and over my life. I do this every year, and Lord, i INVITE You into 2009 :)

Thank You for a brilliant 2008, but i’ll be expecting more. Volunteering in AYA. My absolute final semester in Monash. The transition from being a campus student to a YWA (oh, miens). The journey of life..which i have no doubt You’re gonna lead me in. Slowly..steady. I need You, more than ever, as i embrace the change that’s coming my way.

Most relationships seem so transitory,
They’re all good but not the permanent one.

-Soul Mate-Natasha Bedingfield-

As the changes come, I’m looking for permanent. You are one. But so are you.

Now that i know some people who read my blog are so amused with upper-case and lower-case Y’s, i get a kick of putting them there :D *cheekily*

I still meant it though ;)

Oh alright. I’ll have ONE resolution :

  1. I’ll try to NOT let whatever’s in my head come out of my mouth, without at LEAST, considering the consequences.  Be gone verbal diarrhoea!

There, how bout that?

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:: just because ::

…i’m full and contented, tired yet awake, satisfied but still in want, happy and puzzled. All at the same time.

If only words were more than enough.

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:: taking a breather ::

I’m contented. Snuggled in with my pillows and a book by Cecelia Ahern. Had a nice warm cup of milo with me. Yes, i do believe i’m very contented.

So this is what you do when it all slows down and the minutes that tick by feel a little longer than before. You take your time. You breathe slowly. You open your eyes a little wider and look at everything. Take it all in. Rehash stories of old, remember people, times and occasions gone by. Allow everything you see remind you of something. Talk about those things. Stop and take your time to notice things and make those things you notice matter. Find out the answers you didn’t know to yesterday’s questions. Slow down. Stop trying to do everything now, now, now. Hold up the people behind you for all you care, feel them kicking at your heels but maintain your pace. Don’t let anybody dictate your speed.

-Thanks For The Memories-Cecelia Ahern-

Sometimes, i find myself trying to make myself feel bigger, by compiling lists of importance.

And almost always, You come and muss up my plans. For that, i guess i can *only* be eternally grateful. In everything i’m praying about, i do wonder though, if my eyes are opened wide enough for what You want me to see.

I guess something may not quite be right when i have to try, to try.

Just so you know, i do notice. And i can’t determine how i feel about it yet.

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:: no morsels ::

i’m casting my cares on Him.

Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You’re not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It’s the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won’t last forever. It won’t be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, he does.

-1 Peter 5:8-10-The Message-

Some bits of advice given today were a little hard to digest. Sometimes i wish that things could be a little bit more clearer. Or that there was a manual that says “do this” or “don’t do that”. Clarity seems like a far-fetched thing in this situation. I suppose that’s where i learn to respect the opinions of others and once again trust that He has the last word. I suppose, since i’m not suffering with these bits, i’ll just pretend i could have my cake and eat it too? Oh, morsel.

Scratch that.

I refuse to settle. *pulls the handbrakes with a screech*

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