Archive for May, 2009
May 30, 2009 at 12:24 am
· Filed under On Life, On Movies
God’s been revealing some of the struggles in my heart.
Trying to balance school and ministry. Church and friends. It’s not easy merging them all together. As much as i want to. After getting over my brief moment of ‘resentfulness’ for not being able to go for a gig due to a last minute practice, i’m reminded how i should never put God second. Why start now kan? Utterly surrendered, i must be.
Another lesson i learnt as i got miffed/irritated by a person.
‘Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.’ - Ephesians 4:2
Bearing with one another in love = Making allowances for our faults with love.
That person prolly has his own stuff to deal with. Ah, i am humbled. Much to learn, indeed. And i pray i’ll never STOP learning. He honors those who honor Him. Hang in there, you :)
P/S : I totally enjoyed Monsters vs Aliens in 3D. Go watch! :)
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May 28, 2009 at 5:04 pm
· Filed under On School, On Wants
I.Am.Done.
No more stinkin’ presentations and 3500-word boring reports that i’ll never read or do again for a long long time.
I.Is.Happy.
What’s left…
- MGW1100 Final Paper on 10th June @ 8.30am, seat no.324 in Room 6303
- AFW3331 Final Paper on 16th June @ 8.30am, seat no. 025 in Exam Hall
REVO Conference smacked right before it! Woots!
Ooooooh. Guess what? :D
I’m expecting a baby in June. How’s that for a controversial end for a post? :D I’m gonna look at my ‘baby’ as a testimony tho! Ask me! Ask me! :D
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May 27, 2009 at 2:13 pm
· Filed under On School
You put your right foot in,
You put your right foot out;
You put your right foot in,
And you shake it all about.
You do the Hokey-Pokey,
And you turn yourself around.
That’s what it’s all about!
I dislike group work immensely. Or maybe, it’s just *this* group. Lord, grant me patience. *balls fists in annoyance*
lastonelastonelastone.
suckitupsuckitupsuckitup.
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May 27, 2009 at 12:24 am
· Filed under On Personal Stuff
I felt a wave of sadness after prayer service today. It was so odd, i was supposed to be in a celebratory mood. Maybe this is a result of being ‘poked at’ frequently. *drily*
Am i asking for too much? I don’t know. *frowns*
I don’t like being in a limbo of moving one step forward and having to take 2 steps backward to…’guard myself’. I know i have to, but gawd, it’s tiring.
Sometimes it seems
Like all I ever do is ask for things
Until I ask too much of you
But that’s not the way (that’s not the way)
I wanna live (I wanna live)
I need to change (I need to change)
But something’s got to give.
-Give-Relient K-
What else am i supposed to be giving or give in to? A little bit of help here, please? *looks up*
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May 25, 2009 at 8:24 pm
· Filed under On Everything Else
It’s not always about you.
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I realise words can cause so much damage. It’s funny how the least of them could have the greatest impact. Why did we ever get so flippant with our words anyway? Even if its out of merry jest. Perhaps, we should guard our lips a little bit more. And while we’re doing that, guard our hearts to not take offense.
Then there’s the other matter of thinking there’s more to nice words than there really is. Taking things at face value? I’ve learnt not to read into things too much. Maybe you should too :)
Don’t get stuck in sticky situations.
Random : Words like chimichanga makes me giggle.
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May 21, 2009 at 1:23 am
· Filed under On Everything Else, On Life, On Wants
This blew my mind away.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am i to be fabulous, brilliant, talented, gorgeous? Actually, who are you not to be. You are a child of God and your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine; like children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not in just some of us;it is in every one of us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give people permission to do the same. As we are liberated by our fears, our presence automatically liberates others.
-Nelson Mandela-extracted from “Screw It, Let’s Do It” by Richard Branson-
Sometimes God allows us to go through what we do, not JUST so that we can learn something from it and grow ourselves…but also that we may be a testimony to others. It becomes our own story that we may share to inspire and relate. I forget sometimes, that people ARE watching.
A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Even power cuts don’t last *that* long.
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News Flash #1 : I got a 8.67% out of 10% for my mid-sem test! Yay!
News Flash #2 : McFuji (my laptop) is sick and went to the Fujitsu Hospital. It is discovered that the backlight problem is due to a motherboard problem which…will cost RM3,500 to fix. *feigns a heart attack*
News Flash #3 : A girl named Ellie is accepting donations to buy a new laptop. There is a desperate need as monitoring databases, preparing a major presentation, job-hunting and obsessive email-checking needs to be done. *looks longingly at a pretty silver apple sitting at the Machines counter*
Mmmmm. The apple was NOT the cause of sin.
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May 17, 2009 at 12:35 am
· Filed under On Everything Else, On Movies, On Music
Nah, not really. Thought ‘Sell Out’ was overrated. Give me a Yasmin Ahmad movie anytime. Perhaps my lack of enthusiasm for the show was due to the fact that some ‘important’ stuff was shown in the first 10 minutes into the movie. And i missed it. Hehe. My highlight of the movie : i thought the ‘Money Song’ footages were cool. Otherwise, you should just watch it and conclude your own thoughts on it :)
I’m liking the Posies.
What takes up the space in your life?
Does the sum of the slights hurt?
Sooner or later, love comes inside you, gets behind you,
Takes you under its wing, is it some kind of function?
A reconstruction of what you’ve always been.
-Love Comes-The Posies-
Fascinating, they are.
I’ve been an immature brat for ranting over my week. To everyone, anything that would listen, really. I’m sorry if i bored the ears off some of you :) Rant over. For real. I’m gonna focus on the week ahead now :)
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May 16, 2009 at 2:16 am
· Filed under On Personal Stuff, On School
I had, possibly, the worst week of this school semester. Not only that, i had the worst group assignment experience too. Of which, i had not experience in my previous 3 years of university education. No kidding.
Think it was really God’s grace that made me..not faint to survive yesterday and today after the whole ordeal…since i didn’t sleep nor eat (literally) for 24 hours straight. I could be a doctor :D I’m kidding here.
I could’ve ate my groupmates up. Chewed them. Spit them out. And make them do work in their mashed condition. Grace, indeed.
Anyhoo, passed work up and STILL got late penalty. You tell me la..how to not get upset kan? Right right? Not only has the ‘ordeal’ made me tired and even more panda-eyed, i’ve been reduced to being more cina due to the company i’ve kept for the past 2 days. Ko meng ah. (Help!) See what i mean? =.=
I need to recharge. Or be a hermit. Or ’sell out’. In no particular order.
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One needs to learn how to respond, not react. Even when it kills you…hurts. Even when its unfair…not quite expected. Even when one should/wants to rant…remain silent.
When it rains…it pours.
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May 12, 2009 at 12:57 am
· Filed under On Life, On Memories, On School
Don’t you think the days are longer than the nights lately?
I love the sun. Not so much the heat. But i do love the sun. I make my peace with sunshiny mornings. Its these times that i’m left by myself to be quiet. When i’m awake enough to pay attention. Dazed enough to not be bothered about the ‘cares of the world’. It’s when I let my walls crumble slowly, that more Sun can come in.
Life’s been like a carousel lately.
As fun as it is, i’m frustrated with going around in circles. Slowly. Maybe a lil’ speed might help. Or perhaps, a ‘change of tune’ on the carousel playlist. Yeah, maybe that’ll do.
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Things left to do :
- AFW3331 Mid-sem Test [Done!]
- AFW3331 Individual Assignment [Progress : Completed]
- MGW1100 Group Assignment [Progress : 50%]
- MGW1100 Group Presentation [Progress : 0%]
- MGW1100 Final Paper on 10th June
- AFW3331 Final Paper on 16th June
The end of school is closer than i think it is.
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May 10, 2009 at 10:50 pm
· Filed under On Love, On Personal Stuff
Random surfing of videos brought me to this song. And it just…caught my attention again.
If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I’m unreal
‘Cause everybody’s got their way I should feel
Everybody’s talking how I, can’t, can’t be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody’s talking how I, can’t, can’t be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything.
-Be Be Your Love-Rachael Yamagata-
I like this song. I miss certain things, random lil’ conversations and ’sticky notes’ that i’ve stuck on you…proof of how much i’d gotten to know you over these past months. And yet…its just not worth the thought for now. I wish things could be different. Easier, maybe? But hey, i wouldn’t have to learn patience and ‘waiting’ if it was.
Please, sir, don’t you walk away. Would you have cared enough to ignore what was being said?
I wouldn’t know.
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