Archive for On Wants
November 17, 2009 at 11:01 pm
· Filed under On Love, On Personal Stuff, On Wants
It’s been tiring. Work. And all that. Really takes some getting used to, this new life. *laughs to self* I find myself having to be disciplined, more than before. Lead me where i’m not keen to go?
Paint me royal blue and hues of gold, pull me closer, no one will know. Play with my hair till my smile glows. Its the tender hour. Its moments like these when i’m amused. Its moments like these when i’m confused. Don’t know which emotion to explore, i just know i’m needing something more. – The Tender Hour, Mia Palencia
I can’t keep pretending that *maybe* one day, something will happen.
Look at the feelings i sweep under the rug.
And that moment of longing will pass. You’re a morsel. A pretty distraction. I wish for you to go away and i wished you stayed.
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October 3, 2009 at 8:11 pm
· Filed under On Life, On Wants
I love ‘em. It’s been ages :)
Randoms :
- I’m loving my Colbie Caillat cd. Mmhmm. Perfect for quiet Monday and Saturday nights :)
- I love cooking for Homes. I wish i had more time.
- 67 people at Homes. 12 new. 1 salvation. Like wow. It’s all You :)
- I’m learning not to impose my ideals on other people. There’s only so much i can say. Easier said than done, i’m sure.
- I’ve got a thing for hands. I’ve been observing them lately.
- Movies i wanna watch : Time Traveler and 500 Days of Summer
- I wish there was Koko Black in Malaysia. Oh, iced chocolate. I miss you.
- Bobby the Car is in the workshop. I miss him too. Accidents are such mafan things. Especially those that involve more than 1 car. Especially when its a Homes week. Especially when…you least expect it. I quote, “There’s no right time for an accident”. How true.
- Friends over boyfriends? Always. What happened to that, i wonder.
- I want that testimony. Wait, i shall.
You got me :)
This was never meant to make sense.
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September 22, 2009 at 1:16 am
· Filed under On Personal Stuff, On Wants
…in the eyes of the world. Such a ’small’ thing…but i knew it’d make a difference in the long-run. Somewhere, sometime.
The same thing could happen to us. We must be on our guard so that we never get caught up in wanting our own way as they did… – 1 Corinthians 10:6
I never thought i’d have to think twice about something as simple. Heart-check. Why am i even still *thinking* about it? I have to admit, i’m still warring inside. The heart is deceitful, indeed. I suppose, ‘this too…shall pass’.
Looking at it one way, you could say, “Anything goes. Because of God’s immense generosity and grace, we don’t have to dissect and scrutinize every action to see if it will pass muster.” But the point is not to just get by. We want to live well, but our foremost efforts should be to help others live well. – 1 Corinthians 10:23-24
I knew i couldn’t tell my girls OK was enough. I had to be better. It wasn’t OK to practice double standards in this occasion. I couldn’t let it slide, just because…
…*I* have to be better.
And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out, try to put an end to all our doubt, try to find a way to make things better now, and maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud, we’ll be better off somehow, someday. - Someday, Rob Thomas
It’s not the ‘ugly truth’. It’s truth, pure and simple :)
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August 14, 2009 at 1:33 am
· Filed under On Personal Stuff, On Wants
Me and my big mouth. I should really watch what i say…and what i don’t.
Here’s to working on all that needs ‘working on’.
God, i don’t want to have lizards in my life. Get rid of them please? In Jesus’ name, amen.
On a random note, i want a Doof :) Hit me, babay. Someone’s birthday is coming soon. Tralalalalala.
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July 5, 2009 at 12:17 am
· Filed under On Memories, On Wants
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June 12, 2009 at 12:36 pm
· Filed under On Dreams, On Wants
Had my first paper yesterday morning! Praise God that it went pretty well. Other than the lack of time, furiously and frantically writing my answers within 2 hours, i think, hope and pray that i did well enough :) One more to go. And that would be…the end of my Monash season.
The thought seems scary, but i’m looking forward to it. I dunno where to go after that, YET, but i’m leaning not on my own understanding. There’s Someone that’s directing my paths. I’m just gonna follow. I haven’t even started looking around for jobs. Pffft.
I can’t believe how bad the haze is. I miss my sunshiny mornings. Do you remember those mornings where there’s enough sun to make gold patches where the leaves part? The kind where i used to believe that if i were to stand in the gold patch and make a wish, all my dreams would come true. Where it’s bright…and yet, not too hot? The kind that could *almost* convince you to live outside forever? The kind that’ll make you throw your phone and laptop away and say, “I’m Yours for today”.
No?
Well, i miss them. Very much.
Note to self : Don’t fall into the ‘disney swirl’. It’s a lie.
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June 4, 2009 at 12:07 am
· Filed under On Dreams, On Wants
My baby is here. Everyone, meet Dawn.
A dream come true and an answer to Psalm 20! Woots!
It’s been a significant wait :)
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May 28, 2009 at 5:04 pm
· Filed under On School, On Wants
I.Am.Done.
No more stinkin’ presentations and 3500-word boring reports that i’ll never read or do again for a long long time.
I.Is.Happy.
What’s left…
- MGW1100 Final Paper on 10th June @ 8.30am, seat no.324 in Room 6303
- AFW3331 Final Paper on 16th June @ 8.30am, seat no. 025 in Exam Hall
REVO Conference smacked right before it! Woots!
Ooooooh. Guess what? :D
I’m expecting a baby in June. How’s that for a controversial end for a post? :D I’m gonna look at my ‘baby’ as a testimony tho! Ask me! Ask me! :D
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May 21, 2009 at 1:23 am
· Filed under On Everything Else, On Life, On Wants
This blew my mind away.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am i to be fabulous, brilliant, talented, gorgeous? Actually, who are you not to be. You are a child of God and your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine; like children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not in just some of us;it is in every one of us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give people permission to do the same. As we are liberated by our fears, our presence automatically liberates others.
-Nelson Mandela-extracted from “Screw It, Let’s Do It” by Richard Branson-
Sometimes God allows us to go through what we do, not JUST so that we can learn something from it and grow ourselves…but also that we may be a testimony to others. It becomes our own story that we may share to inspire and relate. I forget sometimes, that people ARE watching.
A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Even power cuts don’t last *that* long.
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News Flash #1 : I got a 8.67% out of 10% for my mid-sem test! Yay!
News Flash #2 : McFuji (my laptop) is sick and went to the Fujitsu Hospital. It is discovered that the backlight problem is due to a motherboard problem which…will cost RM3,500 to fix. *feigns a heart attack*
News Flash #3 : A girl named Ellie is accepting donations to buy a new laptop. There is a desperate need as monitoring databases, preparing a major presentation, job-hunting and obsessive email-checking needs to be done. *looks longingly at a pretty silver apple sitting at the Machines counter*
Mmmmm. The apple was NOT the cause of sin.
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