:: drawing near ::

October 20, 2009 at 11:07 am · Filed under On Dreams, On Love, On Personal Stuff

There are just times where you observe what’s happening around you. And you just get so upset. Angry. Frustrated. God, You work in this situations of which i’ve no control over.

So hard to fathom the pain in Your eyes
As You’re watching Your children, doing what You despise
In pursuit of our own
We just go round and round
Another nail to our cause
We continue to pound
What are you, man, if you do not learn love
What are you, man, if you do not learn love
So hard to fathom, oh, the feelings inside
As You’re watching Your people choosing to die
You called out a warning
To all that would hear
Saying come to Me, come to Me
And I will draw near
Learn love
I must
Learn love
Learn love
Learn love
Learn love
Learn love.

-Simply Nothing-Shawn McDonald-

God, help me learn love. It seems i don’t have enough to give. And there’s, this whole thing about waiting.

I need to learn that too.

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:: burning ::

October 9, 2009 at 12:50 am · Filed under On Love, On Personal Stuff

…and my heart burns…

…it burns for You.

On the rare moments such as these…i revel in being alive.

I close my eyes and this is what i feel : contented. happy. satisfied. And while it lasts, i revel in feeling this way. I wanna be obsessed with You. There’s a madness in my being.

Fill every thought, every dream. Fill me. Keep me burning with the fire of Your love. Surround me. Refine me. I burn.

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:: begin again ::

October 8, 2009 at 12:44 pm · Filed under On Love, On Movies, On Music

Watched ‘500 Days Of Summer’ after all the hype by BenJi.

I quite enjoyed the movie. I say quite…only because i didn’t quite like the girl. She can’t possibly be representing half of the world human species. I’d be greatly insulted. One does not seduce a man…do everything possible (before marriage), create beautiful memories with a man she KNOWS feels more for her than she does for him….and then says, “You’re still my best friend”.

Dudeeeee, that’s wrong. And terribly misleading. I feel for you guys, should you have…similar experiences. Encouragement : God is into second chances :) And, these sorta girls are…exceptions. Not the general rule, i hope.

But the movie was beautiful. I enjoyed how they shot it, moving backwards and forwards. Sorta reminds me of the way we think sometimes when it comes to relationships, doesn’t it? You think about the future when you’re with ‘em. And then, you think about the past when it’s over. Non-linear thinking, indeed.

Despite it being that way, it was easy to understand. Loved the black and white bits. The ‘expectations’ and ‘reality’ bit. The random musical dance bit.

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And of course, Zooey Deschanel’s clothes are AWESOME. I’m totally into collared dresses with sash now. Oh, so vintage. I’m gonna go get one. Whee :D Oh, and the soundtrack’s pretty awesome too. The Smiths, Hall & Oates and Temper Trap? Yeah, baby. And the fact that they had ‘Please, please, let me get what i want’ playing (previously played in ‘Never Been Kissed’ prom king & queen dance moment)…that got me.

I love soundtracks. So sue me.

So yes, i *quite* liked the movie. It’s prolly up your street too :)

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On a random note, I’m totally into Colbie Caillat’s “Begin Again”. Such a happy song. Okay, so the lyrics are not too happy. But, the happy tune! It sticks in your head. The contrast makes it interesting. Not so happy lyrics + happy tune = happy ME!

Oh this is not the way that it should end
It’s the way it should begin
It’s the way it should begin, again
No – I never wanna fall apart
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes – I now we said a lot of things
That we probably didn’t mean
But it’s not to late to take them back
So before you say you gonna go
I should probably let you know
I never knew what I had
I never knew what I had.

Yes, i’m kinda weird that way.

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:: quiet Saturday nights ::

October 3, 2009 at 8:11 pm · Filed under On Life, On Wants

I love ‘em. It’s been ages :)

Randoms :

  1. I’m loving my Colbie Caillat cd. Mmhmm. Perfect for quiet Monday and Saturday nights :)
  2. I love cooking for Homes. I wish i had more time.
  3. 67 people at Homes. 12 new. 1 salvation. Like wow. It’s all You :)
  4. I’m learning not to impose my ideals on other people. There’s only so much i can say. Easier said than done, i’m sure.
  5. I’ve got a thing for hands. I’ve been observing them lately.
  6. Movies i wanna watch : Time Traveler and 500 Days of Summer
  7. I wish there was Koko Black in Malaysia. Oh, iced chocolate. I miss you.
  8. Bobby the Car is in the workshop. I miss him too. Accidents are such mafan things. Especially those that involve more than 1 car. Especially when its a Homes week. Especially when…you least expect it. I quote, “There’s no right time for an accident”. How true.
  9. Friends over boyfriends? Always. What happened to that, i wonder.
  10. I want that testimony. Wait, i shall.

You got me :)

This was never meant to make sense.

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:: be still ::

September 30, 2009 at 12:56 am · Filed under On Love, On Personal Stuff

It’s so frustrating, sometimes. And its not like i know better. I just know that there’s something better worth hoping in.

“Step out of the traffic! Take a long, loving look at me, your High God, above politics, above everything.” – Psalm 46:10

‘Be still, and know that I am God’. That’s what You say.

I can only say so much. I’m asking You to take over and make them see. I want them to see that love is beautiful. That its worth waiting for. It’s worth waiting for the right person. God-sent. Love shouldn’t be awaken before its time. I don’t need to be in a relationship to know that when a heart hurts, it HURTS.

“The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful, a puzzle that no one can figure out.
But I, God, search the heart and examine the mind.
I get to the heart of the human.
I get to the root of things.
I treat them as they really are, not as they pretend to be.“

-Jeremiah 17:9-

You may think that i don’t know what you feel…or what you’re going through. But He does. I put my hope in Him who doesn’t change. People do that. You did.

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:: somebody ::

September 27, 2009 at 11:07 pm · Filed under On Fears, On Memories, On Personal Stuff

I’ve been roaming around, I was looking down at all i see…

You know that i can use somebody.

Someone like You? :)

I threw my trash in a bin at Peacehaven. It is gone.

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Painted faces fill the places i can’t reach…

So many campus students are out there hurting. Genuine, eating-’em-up-inside hurt. What AM i doing with my life?

How do i make it better? What else can i do? Intention with focus.

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Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat…

I hope it’s gonna make you notice…

…someone like me.

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:: the ugly truth ::

September 26, 2009 at 1:43 am · Filed under On Love, On Movies

So i managed to catch ‘The Ugly Truth’ with Elder Shirley. I’m so glad i didn’t watch it with a couple of guys. Lol. Would’ve been MAJOR awkward. I suppose the movie was entertaining…Katherine Heigl’s clothes were awesome, Gerard Butler was oddly attractive. BUT, the values of the movie was just SO wrong. And gawsh, it was so crude!

Girls, don’t shortchange yourselves yeah? You ARE worth it. Don’t believe all the rubbish they show you on the wide-screen. Wide is road that leads to destruction. Heh.

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Heading to Taylor’s CF camp in the morning at Peacehaven, Genting. It’s gonna be awesome! Looking forward to meeting new students and seeing new lives changed by God’s presence and Word.

I’m oddly happy right now. Definitely, maybe.

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:: the haircut ::

September 23, 2009 at 6:49 pm · Filed under On Everything Else, On Life

Okay, so i rarely do this. But when i do, i tell the whole world about it. Only so that i can make myself feel better.

So i turned 22 on Sunday. With my long-didn’t-do-anything-for-4-months hairdo.

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Yeah. Gembira betul.  So happy, i decided to give myself a birthday treat with a recent angpow. Woots! :D

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Meet the new ‘do’. Hello, me.

At first, i didn’t quite like it. Only cause this is the *shortest* i’ve cut my hair since Form 3.

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I hope i don’t look too young to work. *grin*

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The ultimate ‘long bob’ look. Didn’t have the guts for a ’short bob’. Hee.

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:: consider me ::

September 23, 2009 at 1:21 am · Filed under On Dreams, On Music

I’m here waiting for, something better just to come along
I’m here waiting all this time, waiting for the world
To change it’s mind.
I’m here waiting for something better to come along
I’ll take a chance on you, you take a chance to…

…consider me, consider you, consider the world
And what we put it through.

-Consider Me-Prime Circle-

Relief is an understatement. What am i waiting for?

Him to move.

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:: it would’ve been OK ::

September 22, 2009 at 1:16 am · Filed under On Personal Stuff, On Wants

…in the eyes of the world. Such a ’small’ thing…but i knew it’d make a difference in the long-run. Somewhere, sometime.

The same thing could happen to us. We must be on our guard so that we never get caught up in wanting our own way as they did… – 1 Corinthians 10:6

I never thought i’d have to think twice about something as simple. Heart-check. Why am i even still *thinking* about it? I have to admit, i’m still warring inside. The heart is deceitful, indeed. I suppose, ‘this too…shall pass’.

Looking at it one way, you could say, “Anything goes. Because of God’s immense generosity and grace, we don’t have to dissect and scrutinize every action to see if it will pass muster.” But the point is not to just get by. We want to live well, but our foremost efforts should be to help others live well. – 1 Corinthians 10:23-24

I knew i couldn’t tell my girls OK was enough. I had to be better. It wasn’t OK to practice double standards in this occasion. I couldn’t let it slide, just because…

…*I* have to be better.

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out, try to put an end to all our doubt, try to find a way to make things better now, and maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud, we’ll be better off somehow, someday. - Someday, Rob Thomas

It’s not the ‘ugly truth’. It’s truth, pure and simple :)

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