:: she fell in love in the first place ::

It seems that hearing really sad stories from people really *can* affect the moods/emotions of others. I find myself having a hard time trying to detach myself or at least *trying* to, that i may remain in an unbiased position.

I won’t be held responsible,
She fell in love in the first place.

I’m affected nevertheless, listening to totally emo music and thinking, i wish i could take away all your fears and insecurities. But then again, i’m a girl too. I know how it feels. I don’t need to be in or have had a relationship to know that girls who give their hearts, seldom get their hearts returned wholly. I thank God that He’s merciful to give time to heal, strength to overcome, and His love that remains. No matter how much we fail Him, He still waits.

Premature attraction needs guidance. Don’t rush. Think. Pray. Surrender. He’s only got the best for you.

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise
And we’d never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We’d ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen.

Perhaps i’ve been too judgmental. Too idealistic. Is that why you won’t let me in? I have no defense for myself other than, i protect myself for a reason. I remain accountable. My guard cannot be let down. And neither should yours. Not yet. Not for any Tom, Dick and Harry.

He may be sweet. Charming, even. A gentleman in every way. I’ve met a few. Amazing brothers whom i respect and admire. But they need to grow too. Sometimes the outward facade does not reflect the inner spirit. Understand that i’m not perfect to speak about such a delicate issue. But know that these boys/men are not either.

But God is. He waits for our hearts, girls. We’re precious in His sight. Won’t you believe that? Wait, i plead.

I share my heart with you.


Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone
to have a deep soul relationship with another
to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But God, to a Christian, says,
“No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me,
with having an intensely personal relationship with me alone,
discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.
You will never be able to unite with another until you are united with Me,
exclusive of anyone or anything else,
exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,
one that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the very best.
Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest thing,
keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM,
keep listening and learning the things I tell you,
you just wait, that’s all.

Don’t worry. Don’t be anxious.
Don’t look around at the things others have gotten or that I’ve given them.
Don’t look at the things you think you want.
You just keep looking at Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready,
I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would dream of.
You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,
(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time)
until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me,
and the life I prepared for you,
you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me,
and thus the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love.
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me,
and to enjoy materially and concretely,
the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love.
Know that I love you utterly.
I am God.
Believe it and be satisfied.”


4 thoughts on “:: she fell in love in the first place ::

  1. Yeah :) I still hold on to it. I figured, there can’t be a better way to share something that means so much to me, than on my blog ;)

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