:: undeserving ::

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

I think that’s how people feel whenever Monday approaches. Sometimes i feel that way. Most of the time, i’m thrilled cause Monday is *my* day of rest. But after Pr Kenneth’s message today, i think i need to do some re-thinking :)

I’ve been feeling tired. Definitely. What i’ve been up to? Presentations, major assignments, *attempting* to record songs, some campus thingies that i’m working on, thinking about PEOPLE and how i really, really need to be meeting up with certain groups of friends before i’m totally disconnected. I’m believing that God has His reasons for keeping me occupied with different things.

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
‘Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad World

It’s been a little hard. Different issues that popped up. I felt that it was *so* true that when things are going ‘well’, offenses and all these petty, unnecessary and definitely, uncalled-for stuff would suddenly be magnified. So true. So true. And i had to repent. I is in the middle of ‘sin’. I need to be the ‘i’ in ‘Christ’. It is Him who gives grace that is sufficient for me, after all.

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

I’m putting on the ‘forgiveness’ gear and slamming on the ‘brakes’. Refresh, renew, restore and revived? God, i need You. Re-focus? I’ll add that as my 5th ‘R’. There’s much to learn. My ‘teacher’, Holy Spirit, is giving me the nudge already. I confess i haven’t been finishing my ‘homework’ :)

Much to submit. Much to surrender. Much to obey. Much to give. God is the Lord of all or nothing at all, indeed.

God knows where i’m at.

The part that i’m trying so hard to comprehend?

He’s giving me what i don’t deserve.

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It’s definitely a ‘mad world’. In the world but not of it? Jesus was the ultimate model. I want to be the ‘new normal’.

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