:: let there be light ::

I’m at a place where i really don’t know what i want.

I don’t know what to apply for…i can’t even tell you what i’d *like* to do for a living. It’s scary…everything’s gonna be so new. I can’t fall back into the routine i know. But i knew growing up had to be done…sometime.

Do the things that you always wanted to, without me there to hold you back, don’t think… just do.You Could Be Happy, Snow Patrol

I just wish it wasn’t so soon. I gave myself till October (which is looming near). And i have nothing. Yet.

Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep…

I dream.

…and the Spirit God was hovering over the waters. – Genesis 1:2

Ah, hover over me, Lord. Show me. Teach me to wait. Let me see the light that’s good.

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I’m envious. I see her, and i wish i could be that way. Less self-conscious. Less guarded. Less…me.

I haven’t been comfortable in my own skin lately.

I’m hopeful. Still.

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