I wish i could say many things right now. But it feels strange to voice out when i’m at my lowest. “Bring it to God before you bring it to man”.
God, i think it’s amazing how You use the cracks in my life to shine Your love and light to those around me. And how immediate it is You put to work what You’re doing in me. I may be hurting, but there are others who are hurting more. How could i deny the works You’re doing in Your precious people all across Malaysia?
I am blessed.
Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face, just don’t turn away
Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching as if I’m not enough?
To where will you go child?
Tell me where will you run, to where will you run?
‘Cos I’ll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands at my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world’s sin
So I could carry you in and give you life
I wanna give you life
‘Cause I, I love you, I want you to know
That I, yeah I love you, I’ll never let you go.
“By Your Side” by Tenth Avenue North.
Am staying put. Rebuking all thoughts that says i need to take a break. That a break or skipping stuff is OK, in the circumstance that i’m in. It’s not OK to compromise nor settle for second best. God, You mean so much more. You are enough.
I’ve tried hard enough. Given all i had and could give. I deserved a better answer.