:: monday gloom ::

Song of the Day: Deeper Conversation by Yuna

Thought of the Day: Heard many ‘sad’ news today. ‘But the Lord is faithful, who will establish you and guard you from the evil one.’ – 2 Thessalonians 3:3

Trying not to be discouraged, nor fear. Everything will work out for the good :)

2nd assessment tomorrow. Praise God it got shifted to the morning instead of the afternoon so that i can make it for Re:Union on time! Still praying if this is where God wants me to be.

Otherwise, i’m super duper psyched for Re:Union! Believing for an amazing Spirit-filled time with friends and family :) It’s gonna be an amazing conference. Believing for so many, many things for so many, many people :) Just that one Word from You, Lord. And that will be enough for me.

And if you don’t mind, can you tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in 

Would you make a difference in the world?

I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation,

Only you can make me.

I’ve let my guard down…for you. And in time, you will too.

Edited: OMG!!! Just heard awesome news!! CONGRATULATIONS, DORIN LUNCHING & JO KIEN on your engagement!!! Am so, so thrilled!! *beams*

:: things i’ll never say ::

It’s raining really heavily. Homes outing is in less than 2 hours.

Was my last day at work. And i left early cause there was nothing much left for me to do.

Another door opened. I’m confused now. I *could* wish it was easier for me to choose, but that wouldn’t be exercising faith now would it? Another interview this coming Monday @ 2.30pm. We’ll see how it goes.

It don’t do me any good, it’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you, what’s on my mind?
If it ain’t comin’ out, we’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care?

Because i can’t. It won’t do me any good.

I’m hanging on to Your Word. Better than any lyrics from a song.


“Clear lots of ground for your tents!
Make your tents large. Spread out! Think big!
Use plenty of rope,
drive the tent pegs deep.
You’re going to need lots of elbow room
for your growing family.
You’re going to take over whole nations;
you’re going to resettle abandoned cities.
Don’t be afraid—you’re not going to be embarrassed.
Don’t hold back—you’re not going to come up short.”

-Isaiah 54 : 1-6-The Message-

:: 3 things ::

Just some short updates on what i’m doing lately :

#1. I got a job :) Praise God! Will be undertaking a role as a research analyst in D&B, a financial services company. Am excited, pray with me that this is yet another opportunity to serve with a purpose and shine for Him! And also, to be the best i can be wherever i’m placed.

#2. I got a new toy. Well, not-so-new. Hahaha. My dad didn’t find the Nokia E71 suitable for him and SO, got himself a new phone and passed it down to me! Ah, it’s not an iPhone 3Gs, but it IS a 3G phone. Would be awesomely useful to keep in touch with churchy stuff thru emails if i’m blocked at my new job :D And i can tweet too. Whee.

#3. I’ll be heading down to Acts Singapore this weekend with the worship team!! Woots. Been waiting for MONTHS. It’ll be lovely to finally visit our ‘family’. So excite lah.

Ah, life is definitely good at this point ;)

On another note, i’m totally smitten by a friend’s darling son, Isaiah V. He’s SO adorable. I stole his picture (ie. didn’t ask for permission to post it up). But i just couldn’t resist!!! Tee-hee. He looks like he knows everything.


Bet he cheered YOU up :)

Hmm. I think it’d be really nice, to marry someone with dimples :)

:: capture me with grace ::

That’s the word i keep hearing lately. God, You capture me with grace even as i am being led into this new phase of my life.

You are the source of life, I can’t be left behind. No one else will do, i will take hold of You… – Rescue by Desperation Band

I’m fearful and excited at the same time. Fearful, that i might not live up to my own expectations of how a young working adult should lead her life. Fearful that i might not be an influencer but instead, be influenced. Fearful that i’m just not…’good enough’.

But God, Your ways are higher than mine. Your thoughts are higher than mine. I shall not limit You by what *i* think. I will not limit your blessings over my life. I trust that You opened this door for a purpose that i do not know yet. I have no other options to compare this one to…and my dateline is Monday. And so, i’m gonna trust that this is what You have in mind for me at this point in time.

The Lord is my shepherd, i shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside still waters., he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil. For You are with me, Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. – Psalm 23

I can’t help but wonder though.

It may not be the way i would’ve chosen, when You lead me through a world that’s not my home. But You never said it would be easy…You only said i’d never go alone. – Ginny Owens ‘If You Want Me To’

Here i am, Lord :) I’m responding. Your kingdom come, Your will be done in my life.

6.30am mornings. *cheers* There but for the grace of God, go I.

:: i wait ::

I sometimes wonder if this readiness, this expectation, prevents the miracle from happening. But i have no choice. He is coming, and I am here. – Clare Abshire, The Time Traveler’s Wife

I wonder too.


I get too caught up in books, sometimes. C’mon, Ellie, back to the real world.

Got lost on the way to KL today, was late 5 minutes for my interview because i got lost *in* Central Plaza too…it wasn’t the best of days, i admit. But yet will i praise Thee. Who am i..who am i…who am i…

…that i should wait for Thy best. I don’t want to search. I want to be found.

One day i’ll say, ‘…i waited for you, and now you’re here.’

I’m hopeful. Still.